What Counts?

Yesterday I posted new content to my page and was feeling good. I committed to 25 posts over the next 5 weeks and I had completed three posts in two days! Then I was getting ready for bed last night and was overcome with a menacing feeling— did my work count? I started doubting myself on the validity of my work and was questioning what really counted as a post. Is a post strictly a blurb on the home page? Do topic pages not count? Also, why am I like this?! Thankfully I finally stopped spiraling at a point in the night and went to bed. 

Forward to this morning I was listening to a podcast in the car about positivity and the host said he didn't feel like recording that episode. He went on to say he did it anyway because it was about the practice and conscious effort to stay committed to his future self. I decided that I had to look at my time spent on those two pages as a success, and recognize that it wasn't a failure to my commitment. I needed to step back and acknowledge that my writing and my efforts were in fact intentional. I followed through with what I had in my mind when I made my commitment. Any doubt I had given myself was just cruel self sabotage.

When I find that I missed a day on my meal plan or fitness tracker I toss my hands up and call it a wash until the next day, week or month. This is by far one of my biggest flaws when it comes to taking action for my future self. Other peoples future selves? Oh I give my all, I give 1000% and will show up every day to help them feel supported in their goals. But I need to show up for me with that same energy. I need to stay committed to my future self. So in a true public display of humility and with a proclamation to the world wide web: I promise to show up for myself the way I so proudly do for everyone else. And thank you to anyone who is here along for the ride!

Ciao for now ♡