New Me, Who Dis?

 What a rollercoaster life is. It is really hard sometimes to see adventure or excitement when living out the daily doldrums. The time spent in between milestones is my second least favorite part of growth... cognitive dissonance if you will. Truthfully though my least favorite is really the beginning bit where fear lives. The rest I quite enjoy; the planning, the detail, executing the work. What's more is those tough or unenjoyable parts are the most imperative. 

Unlike the popular song by AJR, you can't "skip to the good part". When you listen to all of the lyrics in that song you will here him say "If the world gets me where I'm supposed to be. Will I know I've made it then? It's so hard." And that's the area laden with anxiety and restlessness, the part before you get there. The journey. The internal growth is your destination. 

I thought for the longest time that the job, or the move, or the relationship was the destination; and in someway or another it can be. But how I felt after and all the feels I had to feel, and the courage I had to display to get there— that was what was really gained. You can't let your current state control you. You have to live as your future self and enjoy the time in between. When you start to feel that itch just think about how where you are now was once a place you'd hoped to be.