Getting Real

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 AHHHHHHHHH! Okay. Does you mind ever just reel?? I have been on a wild train of thought ever since kick starting my blog again. And this train has been going lightning fast! I'll start with this, since moving back to Central Oregon I have been working full time in an office and I have been making extra money on the side watching dogs and cleaning houses. I have built up a steady clientele and have been able to consistently bring home anywhere from $150 to $3000 a month in supplemental income. All of this is great, of course, but— and there is always a but; I will admit it makes me want to leave my 9 to 5 life and start something new. 

I'm sure you are thinking by now "What a perfect time Victoria! Aren't you moving to Tennessee? Why don't you pick up there?"— and that truly is a fantastic point. Problem is I am cursed with a limiting belief system, and as a compromise have applied to a couple hundred remote jobs. 

With no leads on my applications I also started exploring ways to independently make money online (think IG profiles pitching fast money through affiliate marketing) and to be honest I regret it immensely because now my inbox and social feed are over flowing with obnoxious and showy MLM propaganda. And as cringe as it is to say... I even signed up to take surveys online— I'll give you a tip: totally not worth it. 

I also started following @sierra.honeycutt a few weeks ago on Instagram and I found her content to be super inspiring (despite me not having kids or owning a house just yet) she has such a natural way of presenting herself; I just don't feel I get that anywhere else online. Then it occurred to me— that is what I want to do! Honestly it's what a lot of people want to do who am I kidding. 

Where am I going with this? I will tell you. I am brutally insecure, and naturally intimidated by the thought of sharing anything about myself on social media (which explains my lackadaisical approach to it now). So where do I start? Do I take RetailMeWhatToDo as my pen name? Do I even like the idea of committing my identity to all things strictly retail? That one I definitely do not like the sound of.  Do I re-brand? Do I scrap this blog and go a completely different direction? Right now I am at a crossroad and I am hoping that whatever 'this' is, is leading me to a fulfilling livelihood where I can have my cake and eat it too.


Choo-choo ♡  

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